Insane what a billonaire makes you do, i was quite happy nested at twitter and now im scrambling to make a tumblr, pillowfort and quite probably a dreamwidth, for all the bad that twitter had it was quite nice to have access to so many non eng-speaking or outside the global north fans and creators.


Being completely honest i wanted my second update to follow thematically with some roxy meta, like it kind of feels like im cheating if i do a blog post instead of that, but i guess the bigger question here is cheating who? even tought im old enough to had most of my internet interactions to happen in horny filled bl rpg forum sites i've spent enough time in tumblr and twitter that i HAVE to do things so another might find it appeling or easy to follow, i think numbers and followers as a concept have rotten my mind a little bit.
WHICH takes me to something i've pondering of whether to add a guestbook or a chat, initially i just tought of this place as somewhere to dump every other thing i think about but i feel like doing meta for fandoms and analyzing are such a lost art that the idea of a meta circle seems like fun, i do want to conect to other people but im not sure if neocities is even the place for that and i've been quite shy in using this site as well, theres a lot of fun pages out there! really pushing what can be done with stilyzing which makes me feel like my designs pales in comparision, it awakens in my another case of "is this just a case of fomo or its because im afraid of doing silly frill laded pages at my age?".
ALSO lmao im so sorry for updating so much the site with like minimal changes, i do know that there are programs out there like visual studio and the like but i feel like it flows easier to do stuff inside neocites, even writing feels less daunting than opening a word page or a note app, also im ESL so...sometimes i re-read what i've wrote and realize it makes no sense(--_--).
On a more mundane note i want to update this a little bit every other week as i see this as a hobby when my park shift is done lets see how it goes!.